With a brief sending to both Tempo and Flint to let them know that she would be temporarily distracted, Fireblade kicked off of the floor — well, originally it had been the ‘wall’ of the compartment, when the shuttle’s artificial gravity was working — and alighted atop one of the storage crates bolted to the original floor of the compartment.
She ran her hands down the seams of her armor, undoing the latches and carefully piling each segment neatly in its place in front of her. After several cycles in the hard-shell armor, it was liberating to be back to her flexible — and much lighter — undersuit.
Her helmet stared up at her from the floor, visor faintly reflecting her face. As if irritated to be separated from the amplifier built into the helmet, her implants throbbed painfully where they slipped under the skin above her ears. She massaged each in turn, thankfully quelling the ache.
{Hey, stop distracting the human!} sent the younger tenoin, a playful note in her sanzai.
Fireblade glanced quizzically back at the group over her shoulder… and met Attache Jardin’s wide-eyed stare in return.
With a grin on her face, Talon leaned in to the alien’s shoulder and asked “See something you like?”
So much for her brief moment of relaxation. At the reminder of just why it was important that she remain ready to deploy her powers, Fireblade reached into a pocket and withdrew her standalone amplifier. Carefully sliding it into position over her forehead, she closed her eyes at the familiar brief pinch when it connected with her implants.
She quickly ran through her checklist to test that the amplifier had made its connections properly. While the younger warriors drew the alien back into their wandering conversation, she held out her calibrated strip of metal inside its clear vacuum tube. Focused on it.
The metal glowed brightly, and the thermometer attached to the device reported that the thermal intake was close enough to a match for how much power she had fed into her pyrokinesis. Good – the amplifier had connected correctly.
Even more fortunate, the young paset arrived right then with warmed bottles of noillir. Just the thing to take the edge off of the reduced — but still present — pulsing inside Fireblade’s skull.
For several solon, the compartment descended into satisfied quietness as all within relaxed with their drinks. This was eventually broken by a rather unsettling revelation about human dietary preferences, which then led into a discussion about the various Sister Worlds of the Union. A conversation that Fireblade was content to ignore, until…
“—Even you must have some fond memory. We’ve played; now it’s your turn.”
{It would be useful if you could recount some happy memory.} Tempo sent privately to Fireblade. {If my reading of his body language is correct, Attache Jardin seems to be more relaxed than he has been previously been when in our presence. The communal exchanging of food and stories seems to be as effective in establishing personal connections for his people as for ours.}
{Very well. Then perhaps...} Fireblade wracked her memories for something to share about Deinar, without being too detailed about her training at the Teidar academy to be meaningless to the alien.
Ah. The view out over the city from the old citadel itself, at evening just as the sun dipped over the horizon and all was lit only by the reflected glow from above. A sight whose beauty and serenity had always entranced her, doubly so in her first year there. Right after leaving Seren and being ‘cleared’ to re-enter loroi society, having been examined by doranzer and mizol specialists who deemed her earlier years in a Hierarchy laboratory not to have made her into a threat to the Union.
The first time in her life that she could remember being both safe and alone for even a few bima at a time: no threat looming over her, no constant drive to seek out the next day’s shelter or food.
She was no listel, but still she could close her eyes and be immediately transported back to those happy days. Her life ever since had seen even happier moments, of course — each crunch of a Shell’s exoskeleton under the hammer of her powers was a balm for her soul, every Hierarchy warship that disappeared under Tempest’s guns a remembrance candle to the fallen victims of Seren — but her evenings gazing out over a warm Toridas sunset were the more relaxing ones.
Little of her detailed memories could be squeezed down into the packaged thoughts of sanzai — one could not remotely send ‘images,’ after all — but she hoped that her sendings would describe the peaceful elegance of the moment fully enough for her fellow warriors.
And perhaps even the alien, if Tempo could translate the elegant thoughts of sanzai into mere spoken words.
Her moment of openness was interrupted — because of course — by the alien’s glib remarks, the conversation having evidently wandered afield while she was lost in her memories. “...Ah, Seren. That was our earlier destination before the Hierarchy attacked, yes? I guess the family visit will have to wait.”
A pulse of anger, unformed sanzai that carried only raw emotion, escaped her mind before she could rein it in. If the alien wished to see her murdered creche-sisters, he needed only to keep speaking so lightly of them and she would soon send him to meet them!
The other loroi in the room exchanged nervous glances. Tempo sent {Fireblade...}
Some detail of her thoughts must have been readable by the mizol. Fireblade closed her eyes and looked aside. The alien could not have known the impact of what he asked… not that it made her feel much less insulted. {I will relieve Flint on watch.}
Bunching her legs under her, Fireblade leapt ‘up’ to the hatch and out of the suddenly-stifling air of the compartment. Distance ate away the conversation behind her until it faded to nothing.
Much better.
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That… was unexpected. Alex had been all but giddy at his success – he had definitely received a broadcast image from the previously-unreadable teidar! A view of a great natural ring of debris arching above a planet, its reflected sunlight illuminating the harbor below and the city crowded around that watery inlet. A xenos city, yes, which somewhat marred the beauty… but not by as much as the Ecclesiarchy would insist. And a clearly-younger Fireblade crouched atop the worn stone walls of an ancient castle, itself much like an old remnant lost amidst the transition of a Feudal-world into a Civilized-world.
Just, of course, with xenos taking the place of good Imperial citizens. A difference whose importance he forcefully reminded himself of.
Regardless, he had learned only too late that Fireblade had much sadder memories of her youth as well. “So she is a survivor of a massacred planet. No living blood-family.” He nodded in understanding… and sympathy. He had no early-childhood memories left of his own birth-parents, killed during a routine Warp journey as the House Trask trade cruiser Scion of Halburg in whose vast hulls they had lived suffered a malfunction of its ancient Gellar fields.
The enginseers afterwards said that the fields had stayed down for less than a tenth of a second.
The daemonic infestation took weeks to clear from the vessel’s three decks which they had overrun.
Including the habitation cluster where one young infant was found amidst the wreckage, the sole survivor. Captain Hadrian Trask (born ‘Jardin’ but adopted into the main branch thanks to his talents) had led the clearing operation in that sector personally, and as he recounted later was downright ecstatic to have found a live psyker… with no living family members or neighbors to have reported his nascent powers. In the perfect situation to be adopted into the Family, molded into a potent hidden tool for the House.
A quite decent upbringing, from the perspective of those who lived aboard the vast and ancient voidships of the Imperium. Life as a valued son — adopted or no — of a House of Trade was far better than that of a mere crew-serf, and especially than that of a psyker delivered to the Black Ships.
It was a… deeply strange feeling to find himself sympathizing with a xenos. Yet he could not help but compare Fireblade’s past to his own. Then again, strong-willed human girls recovered as war orphans would have been sent to the Schola Progenium, often as not emerging as flinty-eyed and unyieldingly-pious Sisters of whichever Order they were drawn to.
Although the few Sororitas whom Alex had ever met — usually visiting one of the House compounds or ships on Family business far beyond his knowledge — had been battle-worn veterans with long-healed scars written across any skin not under armor, quite unlike the unblemished and smooth face of Fireblade. Their hulking armor and ornate robes shared little in common with the teidar’s low-profile armor or skin-tight suit which left so little to the—
He pinched himself, almost hard enough to draw blood.
Pictured the irate, jowled face of his Friday-school Preacher glaring down at him as if he could see the passing heretical thought which had flitted so unwisely across his mind.
“Attache Jardin? Are you well?” Beryl asked.
Searching urgently for a response that would distract him from his earlier thoughts, his mind latched onto the first image that came up: a glimpse from Fireblade’s shared images that came closest to looking the part of a scarred Sororitas. “Is, uh, that what happened to her eye? An injury in battle?”
Tempo and Beryl exchanged a glance. The mizol spoke first “An eye injury? I do not recall one.”
Beryl added with a frown, “Fireblade did not mention one. Perhaps you are tired from not enough sleep? The doranzer said that the biochemistry of your species seems to require more frequent rest periods.”
“That, uh, yeah. That’s probably it, just... tired.” Alex blinked. Sure, he indeed felt the first waves of exhaustion lapping at his mind, but he had definitely seen a scar crossing Fireblade’s shut eye in the image she’d shared.
Why would these other loroi pretend otherwise?
He couldn’t see any angle that they could be pursuing with such blatant falsehood. Then again, the Ecclesiarchy had always warned of the inherent duplicitousness of xenos; perhaps they were drawn to such behavior for its own sake even when it gave them no benefit?
Mind awhirl, he grabbed the purloined seat cushion that he had selected to be his pillow and glanced around the compartment. “There’s not, uh, much room to spread out.” He turned back to see four loroi each looking at him. And just out of the corner of his eye, he caught Tempo giving a single short nod to Beryl. “Uh…?”
Beryl spoke, even as Talon pushed herself closer on his left side. “We cannot say for certain how long we may be trapped aboard this shuttle until rescue arrives. It seems wise to conserve heat however possible, even at the expense of social mores.”
A small corner of his mind saw its opportunity to raise one single point that the greater bulk of his consciousness had carefully suppressed ever since he was picked up by Tempest: Each of the loroi in the small — and feeling smaller still by the minute — compartment appeared to be female. For what little that meant with xenos, of course (as he sternly informed that rebellious corner of his mind). But still...
His eyes snapped from one loroi to another, as they slowly approached him. Now he knew how a lost sand-beetle felt when cornered by a cat — or four! — deep in one of Tallarn’s underground cities. “I, uh… I see.”
And he wasn’t left much of a choice: Beryl did have a point. Which meant that the last thing he wanted to do was irritate these xenos by insisting on sleeping separately. Even if his entire childhood of teaching by the Ecclesiarchy screamed at him: what more extreme violation of ‘abhor the alien’ could one imagine?
Well, he could be—
Alex quickly squelched the suggestions that his mind came up with.
Yet he found that he could not voice the refusal that he knew he should.
So he found himself reclining, skin crawling underneath his robes where the xenos rested against him. His own hands reached across his chest, defensively forming the Aquila. Letting that small bloom of familiarity soothe him amidst these trying circumstances.
Hopefully the Emperor would still appreciate the intent of that pious gesture, even with a xenos clinging to each arm.
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{That went more smoothly than expected.} Tempo mused, as the alien half-disappeared underneath a pile of loroi. {I had anticipated more resistance to extended physical contact.}
Fireblade gritted her teeth. Beryl was one of the closest ones to Attache Jardin now, and Fireblade knew better than to think the listel wouldn’t try to pry into the alien’s mind once sleep had presumably reduced his defenses.
Hopefully she would come to no harm… but there was little that Fireblade could do to protect her now.
{What would you have done if he had objected?} Flint asked.
{Accede to his demand, of course.} Tempo replied immediately. {It would not have been worth arguing the matter — we would have other chances to test his mental defenses at moments of likely weakness later.}
Fireblade turned to the junior soroin next to her. The mizol had put her plan into motion — like it or not — and so now it was time for a teidar to step in and arrange the more mundanely-martial issues. {You and I will take first watch, followed by the two tenoin, and then Reed and Tempo. That will allow more-than-sufficient resting time for each of us.}
{Acknowledged.} Flint replied, leaning forwards to better look into the sleeping compartment. Two fingers drummed idly against the stock of the carbine still hanging against her thigh. {Will be a bit tricky working our way into that pile once off-watch, though.} She glanced back at Fireblade. {Do you want to be on the alien’s right side or his left, then?}
{I will sleep alone.} Fireblade emphasized.
{You sure? Parat Tempo’s got a point that the alien can’t keep up his semi-lotai all the time. Don’t you want a better look inside his head?}
{I enjoyed my first glimpse little enough.} Fireblade sent back. Although to be fair, the fact that the lifetime of intolerant teachings which she had seen inside Jardin’s mind earlier had not seen him refusing even such close proximity as this could mean that his indoctrination was less than she had thought.
…
Perhaps the next night, then. There would be time.
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Four long, dull cycles later, and Fireblade watched as Flint carefully took up the spot vacated — with noticeable reluctance — by Talon. Fireblade shook her head even as she laid down against the floor plating, the hard metal rendered much less of a discomfort thanks to the greatly-reduced ‘gravity.’
Besides, a teidar who had not learned to make herself sleep in absolutely any location was a teidar who would not have graduated from the Academy. Fireblade had dozed off in many far more uncomfortable places... and especially back on Seren.
The harsh memories of that long-ago time welled up even as she worked through her well-practiced mental exercises to bring her mind down to sleep, the two opposing forces fighting each other where they met. But teidar discipline won through in the end — as always — and displaced her memories of shattered Serenid cities and hidden survivors elsewhere, as a sort of hazy distancing clouded into her mind.
The welcome embrace of sleep took her.
///////
The sunlight glowed, painfully bright even through her closed eyelids.
Fireblade sat up, hot sand displacing under her hands. She glanced around.
Empty desert stretched off to the distant horizon in each direction, not so much as a single cloud in the sky.
Ah, Mezan.
Climbing to her feet — no easy task, when the sand slid aside under her boots — she reflexively checked that her helmet seals were intact and her oxygen supply available. One could breathe unassisted on Mezan’s surface… for a while.
That only left the question of where to go from— ah. A cloud of dust rose over a nearby dune, perhaps half a thousand mannal distant.
As good a goal as any.
She was halfway up the great pile of sand when the first traces of sound reached her ears, carried over the thin air.
Metal creaked and groaned; loud, mechanical roars echoed forth that could only come from large engines.
She shrugged, even as the slope turned steep enough that she now had to use her hands to assist in her climb.
Reaching the top, she beheld a grand vista below:
Half-buried below the yellow sand, a colossal great ring was being uncovered. Black as the starless void, it sat unblemished in the all-seeing sunlight. Perhaps six-hundred mannal across, if her well-trained eyes had the size right, twenty tall, and half that in thickness.
Well, it wasn’t entirely uncovered, not just yet. Less than a hundred linear mannal still lay below the sand, near where Fireblade stood atop the dune.
But not for long. A dozen large machines labored ceaselessly, engines spewing black-gray smoke high into the sky as their gleaming metal planes crudely shoved sand aside. Lined tracks wider than Fireblade was tall were left behind them, but only for a short while before the next machine backed over and scraped yet another layer of sand away.
Fireblade frowned — the machines each had a glass-fronted cabin, twinkling brightly as their motion caught the sunlight. None of them were the camera-covered AI-managed dirtmovers that she had seen used by gallen combat engineers to improve a position on the few planetside battlefields she had been deployed to.
It seemed an odd choice to use on Mezan, whose permanent inhabitants were few… and almost all listel. Certainly putting someone with as much curiosity and irrepressible energy as Beryl behind the controls of a bulldozer would be a—
Then it hit her. Beryl!
Memories flooded back into her mind: the battle, the alien, the shuttle.
She was dreaming.
But at least now she knew it.
Only… why Mezan? Fireblade had only visited it once, and that was quite some time ago.
Was this perhaps not her dream? Then whose was—
Of course. Beryl again.
Yet it was a difficult and rare thing to share another’s dream. The sort of bandwidth that that required implied physical contact, and Fireblade’s own… ‘issues’ controlling her mind’s power when asleep meant that few other loroi ever wished to slumber even near her, nevermind outright contact.
Had Beryl moved over to Fireblade’s side while the teidar slept? It was a touching gesture — literally — but unnecessary.
While she thought, the strange manually-managed excavators had continued their work. Fireblade would have to ask Beryl about them later; was this a memory of some archaeological find judged too fragile to leave to AI-run dirtmovers? But then why—
The last waves of sand were shoved aside, and the very final grains trickled down.
The Ring moved.
Contracted in a brief spasming pulse, as if its midnight-black mass was one ring of muscle.
Its featureless surface was suddenly alive with embossed figures, loroi-shaped beings crowded close together.
The figures moved.
Danced, writhed, intertwined and separated.
Split apart, then joined together.
Always moving.
She turned her eyes aside. The visuals were… obscene. Their smiles not quite ‘right,’ too sharp and leering. Their eyes ever searching, probing—
Fireblade paused, a realization striking her. She was a hundred mannal away from the nearest point of the Ring… how could she ‘see’ the figures with such detail?
She turned back just in time to see the Ring erupt.
A cacophonous blast of purple light surged forth from the empty center of the Ring, even as the structure itself pulsed once more. No, ‘throbbed,’ as if its great bulk were suddenly living flesh.
And the figures who had danced across its surface now stepped out onto the desert sands.
Spindly beings, they no longer resembled loroi. Limbs too long, ears too sharp, skin too pale…
And the chitinous claws that a few sported in place of one hand were a particular giveaway.
The dirtmoving machines that had been thrown from the Ring when it came alive were the fortunate ones. Their hatches spilled open amidst bursts of dirty-black smoke, terrified operators fleeing into the desert.
They didn’t get far.
Even as the few machines that had remained perched atop the Ring sank into it — no, were swallowed by it— the not-loroi surged forth after the fleeing operators. Great loping bounds carried them forth, narrow feet not deigning to sink into the sand beneath them.
The machine operators were cut down by the dozens, red blood arcing high into the air behind each claw-stroke… and confirming something whose strangeness had almost faded into the background of the entire bizarre scene.
These operators were also not loroi.
...Humans?
One of the few remaining survivors scrambled up the dune near Fireblade. Ripping the cloth headwrapping from his face, the alien stared at her with wide, bloodshot eyes. His open mouth gibbered at her, language unintelligible.
“[Flee, you fool! Call for the PD— oh, Throne preserve us!]” He turned to run down the hill that she had earlier climbed.
And froze, as a red-stained claw burst forth from his gut.
Crimson blood surged from the alien’s mouth as he stared down at his death-wound for a moment, before stilling forever.
The creature which dragged itself up onto the dune’s crest flicked its chitinous limb, the corpse sliding off to thud into the sand.
It then turned to Fireblade, head tilting to one side and then the other.
Fireblade shook herself. Dream or no — and she now truly hoped that this nightmare had not come from poor Beryl’s mind — her instincts as a teidar could tell when a fight was coming.
She balled her powers, hurling them forth to cast the strange new alien back down the slope.
It didn’t move.
A forked tongue darted forth, wetting purple-black lips as the monster took one step forwards.
Fireblade tried again.
Nothing.
Her powers, the strength of mind and soul that had sustained her through the grinding horror of Seren, had gone.
Well, that left her one option.
Her opponent slashed down with its chitin-claw, and Fireblade’s own arm rose to meet it with a careful blow to the side. Deflected the descending limb into the sand beside her.
She stepped into the attack, her left hand forming a fist that she drove into her attacker’s stomach.
The creature doubled over, retching as its too-wide mouth spat glistening black blood.
Fireblade brought her knee up under the being’s chin, snapping it back amidst a spray of shattered teeth. Her foe slumped lifelessly to the ground, unmoving.
She nodded sharply, satisfied. Toridas Academy taught its graduates never to rely upon their psychokinesis alone. And—
Her only warning was a high-pitched shriek behind her.
Then razor-sharp teeth sunk into the weak points at the base of her helmet, stinking breath choking her even as agony slammed into her neck—
///////
Fireblade jolted upright.
Arms snapped out ramrod-straight, shoving her up off the metal plating of the shuttle’s compartment even as her nose stung from where her convulsion had slammed it against the floor.
The shrieking noise from her nightmare persisted, however.
The proximity alarm.
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And then I get to write Fireblade ‘enjoying’ a nightmare rather akin to canon-Alex’s own. For anyone interested, the scene depicted there is canon to 40k (well, aside from there being one very confused teidar watching the disaster unfold) and marked the beginning of a major episode in Tallarn’s backstory. Of course, the significance of the event to this crossover tale will only be revealed a good while later...